2/23/18

Today we went down to the ocean.  It was a good experience again - but I am struggling with my emotions.  I feel depression setting in and I am feeling lost and empty.  I am not sure where I belong and tears are pouring out.  I am not sure where I belong.  I love the environment and the energy here - but I soooo deeply miss my family.  I often feel this deep hole in my heart and missing the hugs of my wonderful grandson and my kids.
I know the tears will flow and I know they are a way of releasing and cleansing.  I know I need to let go of the anxiety and stress - and allow my spirit and soul to shine and soar again.
Like the waves of the ocean I know I need to rise and fall with the challenges I am given so that I may grow and learn. 
We all need to face our challenges and stand up to them - this is how we all need to see challenges - as a chance to learn. 
We need to be grateful for those ebbs and tides, along with the smooth and calm waters and appreciate each moment in life.