Today we went down to the ocean. It was a good experience again - but I am struggling with my emotions. I feel depression setting in and I am feeling lost and empty. I am not sure where I belong and tears are pouring out. I am not sure where I belong. I love the environment and the energy here - but I soooo deeply miss my family. I often feel this deep hole in my heart and missing the hugs of my wonderful grandson and my kids.
I know the tears will flow and I know they are a way of releasing and cleansing. I know I need to let go of the anxiety and stress - and allow my spirit and soul to shine and soar again.
Like the waves of the ocean I know I need to rise and fall with the challenges I am given so that I may grow and learn.
We all need to face our challenges and stand up to them - this is how we all need to see challenges - as a chance to learn.
We need to be grateful for those ebbs and tides, along with the smooth and calm waters and appreciate each moment in life.